Sakit

Sakit yang aku pernah lewati

seakan kembali lagi

Aku benci bila perasaan mula

mengalah dengan nasib

Aku benci bila perasaan mula dihimpit dengan masa lalu

Aku benci bila perkara yang aku alami

seakan dejavu yang menjengah

Aku mengalah lagi

Angkat kaki lagi untuk entah kali keberapa

Sejenak aku teriakkan suara dalam hati

Penat hampa penuh lumut lamunan panjang

Mimpi tak jadi

Pupus menjadi kosong hati

Sudahlah

Buang saja harapan

Tak perlu berangan

Biar saja awan berarak terbang

Sudah

Tak perlu ingin

ingin hanya buat pilu hati

Biar saja biar

Semua sudah jadi takdir

Entah takdir apa yang akan mengalir

ikut saja jalan takdir

Night

What her parents didn't know was that

Their princess cried every night at midnigth

Every night

Her friends didn't know that she was

Unhappy even with that big beautiful

fake smile

Public didn't know that she

Starves herself that she doesn't

Care about her health

The school didn't know

That she has scars

Under her sleeves

And blades in her pocket

What she did know

Was that the pain

Would go away

With just one

Bang-

Thinking

I look at the mirror and stared,

Thinking about how would this be another day in hell,

They say, the world is a better place where we could live,

how they lie sweetly, smiling as they bare their teeth.

All my life, i have suffered their hurtful hands.

Sometimes i wonder, "Do i even really matter?" because i seem so insignificant.

Would they even notice, if i am suddenly gone?

or would they just say "yeah, i know her," then move on.

Death is safer, death is sweet.

I pray to God, as my life slowly slips away,

May this never happen to anyone ever again.